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I am full of nerves

I am really worried about talking on Thursday. That is the day by the way, Thursday. I can't seem to get it out of my head now and its friggin awful. I can see a lot of old me starting to show through again, but also I can see that I have been better at internalizing that issue and know that it will be less of an issue in conversation now. I have my crazy on a leash. I just can't see it ending well. It will from my end, but I don't trust the other side of the conversation. I have heard the same thing over and over after similar incidents in the past and I just want him to say "Oh, hey, look, I have changed and yes, this will work and yes I want this" and that is so illogical. No matter what, I know I can't change it, but to have it happen like this really messes with everything that had been set down after all this time. He genuinely thinks that I am beautiful and that may actually mess with me more. Overthinking. I just have to keep busy for a few days and then let what happens happen.

/end ranty *wtf* is she talking about post

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